Cozy

Never waitin for the first kick to go
But the first kick went so the kid should go
but I'm sick of the kicks, kickin my ass
the kid too fast, takin a minute to rest like the hare
I have more than a moment to bare
gotta be faster than the tortoise
rappin wit a purpose, a cortionist, with words
just torturin you whores, pourin insanity into your cores
Not exactly what you expected, never actually got accepted
But thats just the story of my life, dying at night, crying I might, at the blinding sight
of my wife in another's arms, cuz she has so much fuckin charm
her name is Hip Hop, and we engaged in a lip lock, I keep her on my arm like a wrist watch, but I don't have time to play games wit any chick, if so she can forget my name really quick
wait, what kind of life is this? Im christ wit this, I sacrifice this
Can't seem to cross over from poetry, but I am still flowin for the people who think they knowing me
But you are just as lost as me, my brain is fuckin lost wit me
But I didn't mean to say that in a harsh tone, mark on, the thing Cupid shot the dart on
Not a Valentine's day, but you trapped in mines bay, 7 days before the latter
Too lazy to watch my world shatter, if it breaks then let it fall
for God sakes let death call, the number is probably blocked
If it is I wouldn't be shocked, cuz Death always tries, to suprise, but try me, is what he cries
My calls seem to go unanswered, so I'm left to face this cancer
No chance of chemotherapy, Acapella man, no flow for me or melody
whats left of me? wait, whats right? fuck right, cuz it hasn't loved me tonight
So I'm lookin for a one night stand, elsewhere
I find it, I shower as I play in her wet hair
but I can't dry off my own self guilt
I can't handle this problem like the others I dealt with
It needs a new solution, "who do you think you foolin?"
thats what my heart said, what a revolution, I shift times but you can't beat evolution
Past, present, and future, but I'm in neither, I'm too new to be either
Everybody hates, no not chris, not a diss, but they hatin me
probably because I haven't returned their calls lately
But my hand is paralyzed to a pencil
inclined to this utencil, trace over me, Imma stencil
no wait, thats not even possible, can't cover me, impossible
so don't waste a cover, and fake a lover, and save yo rubbers
thats seems to be the mindset of all my exes
Not many words for them, Y,X's, 5 messes,
that I am stuck to clean up, when I say LuvRhate what do you think of?
is it a intelligent master, or a selfish bastard? I pray its not the latter
down on 2 knees, want the best opinion, truly, but cooly
I will accept what you pettle, "does that mean that you settle?" yeah I suppose I do
but there's always a purpose to what I do
I'm gifted, its funny and I gotta laugh
at how my hero is a psychopath
and how I'm gathering numbers but I'm low in math
but I don't need a ruler to watch my fame grow
not being boastful, its just plain to know
I don't listen to other guys, cuz I don't like to listen to others' lies
if you don't believe me, check wikipedia (laughs)
don't need Webster, my blog is my encyclopedia
my media, is what I believe in, fuck the thought of leavin
Cuz I'm never a runaway, my words are a weapon, put the gun away
don't wanna blow your head off in one sentence
one word is alll I need, thats a funny sentiment
but maybe its just in my head, I should be dead
cuz my heart stopped 4 years ago, but they want more so here you go
I have after life flow, I mastered life so, whats makes you think I couldn't do it again?
I could have had her but damn I blew it again
don't blame me, cuz Imma brain dead Zombie, they use pain and lead to punish me
astonish me? naw they never could, understood? probably not, obviously not, cuz I spit like a retarded kid that spits, I'm hard with this, no viagara in my water, just a writin disorder
So they have to keep a pc from me, but I Mac and open its Windows honestly
I stay lost in a Ipod, I should be abale to roll cuz I rock
Shakin your world like Haiti, flight rate me, cuz I am in the sky wit the airlines
fair times, well they were until I blacked on a track
I am everything except whack
u other Mcs' should just accept you whack
stretching rap, yeah thats me, casualty, casually me, what's after me?
everyhting else, I make everyhting melt, by just spittin some hot shit
wait I need help, never mind I got this
Boy meets World, I bought this
Season 1 Mr.Feeny, I taught this
but thats only cuz I'm the teacher's pet
repeatin everything the teacher said
I take notes on my sidekick
Need chicken noodle soup, delete the "m", I sick
but thats only cuz I take advantage of my vowels
A,E,I,O,U's wipin my mouth with paper towels
My words are garden that gets overshadowed by the flowers
but I fertilize the thoughts in your mind
so intertwine your hand to mine
So I can water your frontyard
I love a fun start, but I hate happy endings
I don't rap cuz its trending, I rap cuz I love mending
what me and Hip Hop once had, what fun we had
some would grab, but I knew I was who she really loved
the others were really subs
but it was funny to watch her stomach glow
and I knew I wanted to grow, so I want my fro, back
No throwback, jersey, just get comfortable
I come to this conclusion slowly
Maybe I have become just to Cozy

LuvRhate

Homecoming...

I must be lost from this thing we call life
Cuz Idon't know which way is home, left or right?
Can't make up my mind so I guess I go straight
Wait I messed up, its too late
To go back and fix that mistake
I missed fate, so I guess I can no longer be Destiny's Child
I don't even want to look for my Beyonce anymore well at least not for a little while
Yet I still smile, even though my problems are startin to pile
one on top of the other like a sandwich
leavin me confused like foreign class, spanish
But females is how I relieve my panic
I talk to them so much Ithink I am startin to speak their language
but these same females stay callin me manish,
but I am startin to understand it
haha, not understand them but understand myself
I see why I never cry "help"
While I contemplate "suicide might help"
might accept, that I couldn't step, into that bright spotlight
not might, but I might, I don't need a enemy, I have my own personal fight
Its me versus me, I wonder who would win
Who would be standin in the end?
but I would prolly kill the competition before it begin

Chorus
I'm my own worst enemy
but I got fans that say that they feel me
so I guess I'll stay for 2 more years
More than far away are my fears
If words are a weapon then I'm gunnin
I got gifts so maybe I should celebrate like its Homecoming

High school reality, My rule mentality, I rule in actuality
if u disagree then dismiss it, cuz I got more gifts than christmas
I could say my ABC's on a song and make it hot
I could start a riot and make it stop
I just got that much control, if life is a movie then I got dual roles
Cuz I am playin this dude, and that dude
dictatin his mood and her mood with the ish I do
But aye maybe I am too cocky for the stratusfere
Im too much for the world, yeah thats clear
I should be somewhere intergalatically jammin
but sadly in actuality, I'm crammin
for the test of life, that is on the day after next
I wish I could tell u, I could pass the test
But I suck at questions thrown at me
But at least I ain't bein phony

Chorus
I'm my own worst enemy
but I got fans that say that they feel me
so I guess I'll stay for 2 more years
More than far away are my fears
If words are a weapon then I'm gunnin
I got gifts so maybe I should celebrate like its Homecoming

Celebration is in the air, devastation is what I make in my lair
But I ain't crushin society, just squishin variety
Cuz I'm the main attraction, is that frightening?
ha, might be, but u should go ahead and adjust
Cuz LuvRhatin me is a must
like the word play? this is only child's play, I stand aside and watch the pervs play
what did the verb say? celebrate, as in celebrate me
I cheer for the ones that just hate me
but I done became nonchalant lately
could careless, guess Im just dareless
Cant you tell that a nigga like me is rareness?
but in alll fairness, yo mind is probably bareness

Chorus
I'm my own worst enemy
but I got fans that say that they feel me
so I guess I'll stay for 2 more years
More than far away are my fears
If words are a weapon then I'm gunnin
I got gifts so maybe I should celebrate like its Homecoming

Haha, damn I hate homecoming
everybody wearin school colors and ish
like why? maybe I am just above "my" level
huh? lol

LuvRhate...

"I Believe You"

I just can't seem to do right
stupid right? yeah I know I just won a stupid fight
between me and you, what did you expect me to do?
I mean I am only a man
but I never should have raised my hand
now you got a nasty gash
cuz I f*cked around and spazzed
that was more than a mistake
it was a catastophe, let me make
it up, I don't want you to give up
I don't even remember what we were arguin about
what did I go chargin about? never should have barged without a doubt
I never meant to hurt you
let me know if I disturbed you

Chorus
did I really mess up this time?
I can't seem to change your mind, so I guess this is a waste of a rhyme,
but i promise all I need is a sign, so maybe one line,
is all I need to get back on yo good side,
cuz I don't wanna fight,
I just want you, if youi want me too then let me join you,
if you recieve me then I won't leave you, let me hear you say "I believe you"

all I need is three words
if I can't get them then I will fly like a bird
I'll go and leave you me
but baby all I want you to do is believe me
is that too much to ask?
don't let it be too hard of a task
don't make this choice to fast
cuz I don't want you to regret it when you look back in yo past
You have to remember the good times
when we first got together, and shared rhymes
you gave me your heart and I gave you mines
and everbody said we were meant to be
us apart is a sin to me
u are winner to me, imma loser
so us together is a tie
give me one more chance, this is no lie
I got nothin but truth on my side
well at least this time
I just wish we could rewind
take it back to that night
I never would have gave you that fright
never would have got upset
it was nun to stunt so I would have said "fuck it"

Chorus
did I really mess up this time?
I can't seem to change your mind, so I guess this is a waste of a rhyme,
but i promise all I need is a sign, so maybe one line,
is all I need to get back on yo good side,
cuz I don't wanna fight,
I just want you, if youi want me too then let me join you,
if you recieve me then I won't leave you, let me hear you say "I believe you"

retrieve me, go ahead and catch me goldie
when you catch up I want you to hold me
in return I will hold you
Wish I didn't scold you
If I you are my heart then I am the soul to you
I ain't cocky, I just know the truth
remember when we kissed in the booth?
not at the fair, talkin bout the studio
you always knew how to play yo cards, Yugi-Oh
I was always a fool for you though, you always had me falling
so it was hard to see you bauling, it was my fault
still stuck wit that sick thought

Chorus
did I really mess up this time?
I can't seem to change your mind, so I guess this is a waste of a rhyme,
but i promise all I need is a sign, so maybe one line,
is all I need to get back on yo good side,
cuz I don't wanna fight,
I just want you, if youi want me too then let me join you,
if you recieve me then I won't leave you, let me hear you say "I believe you"

LuvRhate..

These Thoughts

The craziest things creep into my mind
images of what me and you used to be rewind
Cuz my mind is a personal tape recorder
but they play in no planned order
Probably cuz I can't stand order
But the ones that won't leave me alone
Are how I ended up single
but its all good cuz I'm just free to mingle
Can't just take one like pringle
But I have too many chips
and too many of them want to be my main chick
but I am in love wit the same chick, that broke the beating thing in my chest
never gave it a rest, guess it just stayed stuck in my head
The thought of others also linger
Like how my ex from 7 months ago who chose me wit her finger
Happened to be in a relationship for 2 years wit another guy, damn what a stinger
Can't believe I wanted to ring her, she was my only one, but I was just her side one
Now I see they still together, and they bullshitting sayin they gonna be that forever
Pssh, never! but its all good, she doin her and I'm doin me
I hate when chicks think they foolin me
I wasn't born in April so I'm nobody's fool
And even worse I'm a rebel so I follow nobody's rule
I think I'm into like the hottest girl ever
I'm my father's son, so she is my world, clever?
But my current "girlfriend" fuckin hates me
damn, why can't God just slay me
Naw, just kiddin baby
But you know I ain't lyiin, confess quickly
Cuz when the last time you messaged me?
I guess u don't have time to mess wit me
But I swear thats just a thought
Cuz I'll never get caught
sayin it out loud, find me on a cloud
writin about you, does that stick out to you?
what is a thought without you?
Oh, its not a thought at all
its just sum I fought to ignore(naw)
press pause, cuz if I don't these thoughts could roam for eternity
but I might not really want them to stop, now thats some real uncertainty
but its all good if they don't cuz these thoughts came from you, maternity

LuvRhate...